Tykkaru – FFXI

Merged RL with FFXI blog!

Posted in Uncategorized by Tony on December 12, 2008
Tony’s boyfriend checklist
Name: Robin Duration: Never happened, in my mind? 4 weeks
Occupation: PhD student Where we met: Masspectrometry Course
Beginner Level
____ Can say “I love you”
____ Isn’t hiding another boyfriend.
____ Thinks kissing is sexy

Has a glowy smile

Is at least marginally sensitive

Will probably remember my name the next morning
Intermediate Level
____ Can say “I love you” without my saying it first
____ Likes me enough to tell me I’m special

Trusts me enough to tell me I’m wrong
____ Teases me when I need it but knows when to stop
____ Pursues making me laugh as a hobby

Pretends to like the same things I do even when he doesn’t
____ Misses me when we’re apart
____ Isn’t afraid to fight with me
____ Allows to drive him crazy
____ Would rather do nothing with me than something by himself
____ Can fall asleep in my lap while I study — and still call it a date.
Top-of-the-line level
____ Can say “I love you” with his eyes
____ Never lies (except to spare my feelings)
____ Doesn’t worry about losing me because he knows he can’t.
____ Forgets there was a time when we didn’t know eachother.
____ Kisses me for no good reason
____ Celebrates my faults
____ Sighs when I hold him
____ Lets me have a time-off when I need it.

I like him so much, a lot really, but I don’t know what to do? Some say that I should take the initiative and talk to him? But I’m not someone like that, but on the other hand, what do I have to lose? Except maybe my dignity? And self respect? *sigh*

A friend sent me a quote today from The Sandman…

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up a whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…

You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ or ‘how very perceptive’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.

It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love. I hate love.”
– The character “Rose Walker” in The Sandman


FFXI update?

Oh right, I’m pretty much getting bored with it. Not much happening, thinking of returning to Phoenix. But I don’t know how to break it out for the linkshell, they recently funded me a Jubbah, and I haven’t really been active enough to think that I’ve compensated for it, and I don’t want to leave it on bad terms. :/

I think two new updates has been since I was on. SCH merit category 1 and 2. I don’t really know what to say about them, they don’t seem that good to be honest – the Relic for SCH body looks pretty nice though. Enhanced Sublimation? 😮


Keryu lent me his new tuxedo. I think I look super charming in it! 🙂


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